"I Can't Wait Until I Am 30!"

Probably since I was 15, I always said "I can't wait until I am 30!" I wanted to live in New York City, San Francisco and London! I couldn't wait until I was completely independent. I had my whole life planned & I even knew what kind of dog I wanted & what I was going to name them. In high school, I was ready to move on. Ready for college, ready for the real world. I had my 20 year plan. I knew everything, from the time I wanted to graduate college and the time I wanted to fall in love. Some of that 20 year plan has changed. I wanted to be a pharmacist, now I aiming towards the goal of being a successful photographer. I do want to marry when I am 30. I still do not want to have children. I still want those English Bulldogs. (This is for you [future] Louie and Betsy!)

Since I didn't get into that college I applied for I went to AACC, the local community college and one of the best in the country. AACC showed me what I really want to do in life and what I have for my back up plan in life. AACC showed me how to use a camera manually & that pharmacy school seems to either be for the extremely rich or the extremely intelligent. I am neither. I'm sticking with my major in Chemistry, but aiming for that life-long photography career.

So today I had a conversation with my friend, "I'm scared of moving on in life. I like it where I am in life right now." I have always wanted to grow up. Now I don't want to and I am extremely scared to grow up. Some might say I am an adult, but in my eyes I'm not an adult until I am completely independent. I'm currently waiting for my letter from that next big step in my life: going from a 2-year school to a 4-year school. Honestly I am terrified of that big campus and thousands of people. I'm perfectly content and extremely happy with where I am in life at this moment.

In the next month, my life is going to change. I am not sure if it will be a good change or a bad, but no matter what I am ready to grab on and let this life of my mine take me on a crazy and wild ride. As I always say, blogs are boring without a picture. This is Nathaniel. He was ten days old when this was taken. This blog is for him because he has nothing to worry about quite yet :]